I hate when I was in a public place and me being the only one doesn't have anyone. I felt out of place and shouldn't belong there besides my house where I can find no self-guilt and shame.
But I feel desperate to talk to when I'm at my worst, but I don't want to be bothered. Do I like being a fucking pessimistic? because it sure looks like it. I often disconnected to the world so I can enjoy my things in peace without any judgement or criticism.